Welcome to my journey...It is quite a ride!

I will be posting poetry, affirmations, thoughts and feelings and motivating quotes. This will be a journal of my life and experiences. If you like what you read, please leave a comment. Journey's are to be shared.

My Favorite Quotes...

"To Hope and dream is not to ignore the practical. It is to dress it in colors and rainbows." ~~Anne Wilson Shaef

Thursday, August 27, 2009


"In the right light, at the right time, everything is extraordinary." ~ Aaron Rose

I believe this. Even small, seemingly insignificant things can become extraordinary. I see it happening daily right now and I make sure to be grateful and show appreciation for them. Life has not been kind in many ways, but I am optimistic about the future. Baby steps, one day at a time. Love will find a way because Love is extraordinary!

Monday, August 17, 2009

He's Coming Home

He is finally coming home. The weekend was an emotional rollercoaster for us both, but it resulted in him leaving this morning to start his trek home. We have much to work through and it won't be easy, but it is possible. I think we have both learned a great deal about ourselves during this separation and have made changes that I never thought we would. That alone is a miracle.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009


A miracle has happened. Russ and I were able to finally break through our communication barriers and discuss our life, our problems, our wants and needs. He is coming home. For the first time I look to the future with hope and confidence. I'm not sure why we had to go through such agonizing heartbreak to the brink of no return before we could reach the place where we were ready. I just wish now that he would hurry home as we have wasted so much time.

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Uncertainty and Truth

Well, where to start. Life continues to be a roller coaster ride and I have motion sickness. That probably sums it up the best. Being positive and knowing the best way to handle things doesn't always mean that you will maintain that positive attitude and make the best decisions.

I am drowning in a pool of uncertainty and struggle with whether I have made the right or best decisions. My hearts says I love him and I can't seem to live without him in my life. I miss his voice, his smile (those dimples), his touch. Is it too late? He has found someone else and has started a relationship with her that seems very intimate. Yet, when we talk he seems so unhappy and says he misses our life. Am I a fool? I do know I am confused and completely miserable and falling apart.

What is the truth? There is my truth, his truth and the truth others see when they look in. I wish someone could look into a mirror of the future and tell me what truth now will lead to happiness for us both? Is his happiness with her? Where is my happiness? I want it to be with him, but it never seemed he wanted it to be with me. I just want truth, honesty and openness. Does it hurt so much very worse to be honest??? I value that over all else. It hurts less in the end.

Monday, June 8, 2009

Which color is your aura?

My result is blue

Blues are the most caring, nurturing and protective personalities in the color-spectrum. They live out of their hearts and their emotions. Their life purpose is to serve, help and love others. Blues have an inner knowledge and wisdom and they feel and know what is right without needing facts or data for substantiation. The moment they become quiet inside, they will recognize or hear an inner voice or guidance, which will tell them what to do. They can easily tune into other people and feel precisely what is going on. Blues are the most emotional of all the color personalities. They often feel lost if they don't have the opportunity to clear their way through their intense jungle of deep feelings. Helpful activities for Blues would include talking with friends about their inner life, writing a journal or just being quiet so their intense emotions can calm down.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Quote to Ponder

"The most authentic thing about us is our capacity to create, to overcome, to endure, to transform, to love and to be greater than our suffering.” --Ben Okri

Friday, May 29, 2009


"Live boldly. Take off those shackles and live life on your own terms.” –Varla Ventura

Enough said...